Giveaway

I headed downtown this morning to do a little Christmas shopping. Hadn’t had breakfast yet, so I stopped in at Starbucks.

Mmm… soy chai. So good. I’m all high-maintenance-y, I order mine without water or foam. No water means it’s got a stronger flavor. No foam means they fill the damn cup all the way up.

And even though it was after 10:00 AM, they still had some of their delicious cinnamon rolls in the case… Cinnamon rolls as big as your head, and filled with five hundred and twenty delicious cinnamon flavored calories.

I couldn’t resist. I bought one. But I had them cut it in half, to help me only eat half.

Tracy asked me, via text, what I was going to do with the other half. I said I was probably going to throw it away, to be rid of the temptation.

She suggested I give it to a bum. Good idea! And so seasonal!

So I headed out onto the streets of downtown, half a cinnamon roll in a box in my hand.

First guy was laying on the sidewalk out in front of the Rite-Aid, with a sign asking for money to go somewhere. He didn’t want it, he said, rubbing his belly, and smiling with only a few teeth in his mouth, saying that he’d eaten a big full dinner the night before and this morning, so he didn’t want it. Um, OK.

Next was a woman, dressed in about fifteen layers of clothing, all of the layers unwashed. She didn’t want it, she said, because “I’ve got heartburn.” All-right-y then.

Next was an unshaven guy whose face looked gray, to match his clothes. He just said, “No, thank you” in a polite but gravelly tone.

So I threw it away. At least I tried, right?

Bugs

I finally tried the free MetroFi wireless internets. I was at the Taco del Mar on SE Stark and MLK.

I chose a seat near the window, and even with line of sight to the antenna outside, I could not get a signal. Then I moved about 5 feet closer (but still inside) and suddenly got the MetroFi Free, MetroFi Premium, and one other signal (I forget but not MetroFi or PTP – probably just some random access point in the area).

I was using my MacBook Pro, and Safari, on Mac OS X 10.4.

I was able, at first, to send email using my normal mail program, so it did not appear that port 25 (in tech-y speak) was blocked.

In my brief experiment in surfing, I only saw banner ads on about half the pages I hit. I had thought banner ads would be on all the pages?

Some sites (like Blue Oregon or Jack Bog’s blog) loaded normally, except with the added banner ad sometimes. But on sites where the comments are displayed in a pop-up window – the pop-up window would load AND the main page would load the comments, too. Annoying.

And a health-related site I use, Calorie Count (I was trying to enter my calories for lunch) just kept refreshing over and over again, making the page unusable.

Meh. If there’s nothing else around, I can use it for a quick look-up. But I’m not going to go out of my way to look at their dumb ads.

ALL

Tracy and I were talking, via text, at work. Then I got busy with some other things and couldn’t respond to Tracy. Tracy kept sending me more and more worried texts, wondering why I’d stopped talking to her.

After I was done, I explained that I had been on a call, and emailing someone else, and I apologized for not being able to talk.

Tracy responded: It’s all in my head, Brian. We’ve gone over that already. But, I appreciate you spelling it out for me. That’s EXACTLY what I need right now. More than you know. Thanks for being you, as always.

I replied: It can’t all be in your head. Because it’s all in MY head.

Tracy: Really?

Me: Duh. It can’t ALL be in BOTH heads, now, can it?

Tracy: I’m pretty sure it’s ALL in MY head, Brian. Just sayin’.

Me: I’m so blobbing this.

Responsibility

Yesterday, Microsoft announced updates for Office 2004 and Office vX. The updates also apparently showed up in AutoUpdate.

Today, Microsoft announced that everyone who got a notice of an Office update and installed it… didn’t REALLY. The updates were posted in error. There’s no actual updates. So everyone who saw the updates show up in AutoUpdate, or downloaded them from the Microsoft website via the above links that no longer work can just uninstall them.

Later today, Microsoft confirmed that, sorry, there’s no way to uninstall an Office update. So the part of the notice that says “uninstall them” is a mistake.

Later than the previous confirmation of the previous notice about the previous updates, Microsoft announced that those responsible for the unintentional posting of the security updates for Office have been sacked.

Shortly after the announcement about the sacking of those responsible for the previous unintentional posting of the security updates for Office, Microsoft stated that there were no sackings, as that would be considered “responsibility” (albeit at a very low level) and that announcing that there were sackings, was a mistake.

Strong deterrent?

Can it be true that my strong opinions on topics can prevent people from discussing things with me?

‘Cause that would be the opposite of what I’m looking for, even as that thought saddens me.

SDTV

I bought a new TV over the weekend.

Don’t jump to conclusions. I’m not a big TV-watcher in the first place. In fact, the TV I’ve owned for the last six or seven years still has clunky round dials to turn to change the channels; one for VHF and one for UHF. I always just left the dial on channel 3, and used the remote that came with my VCR (yes, an analog video recorder… that saves its data on tape, magnetic tape like you’d see on some antique computing device) to change the channels.

But at some point in the last week or two, the TV finally stopped working. I’d received it, gratis, from a neighbor when he’d “bought” a newer TV from his work. He delivered furniture and appliances, and always had a great deal on stuff like that, stuff that had come in, used, and had to be moved to make space. He never actually said that they’d “fallen off the back of the truck” but the implication was always there, if you get my meaning. I also got a washer and dryer from him. The dryer I still have, but the washer died several years ago and I had to replace it out of my own pocket, for around $100.

Less than six months after that, my neighbor, who smoked copious amounts of weed, got involved in a car accident while working (caused, in part, because of his addiction), got fired, spent all his unemployment money on pot, became the center of lots of violent, drunken and drugged fights in my apartment building, and was finally evicted. I haven’t seen him since. He was a good kid – at least at first. I wonder what happened to him? I hope he learned his lesson.

So, my new TV. This weekend I simply couldn’t bear the thought of missing new episodes of “The Simpsons” so I set out in a trusty FlexCar Honda Element to hit the stores. I’d done just enough Googling to discover that new, 25-30″ standard-def TVs run under $300, and was hoping to find a Christmas-season deal.

Standard-def? Sure, the FCC has mandated that all TVs over 25″ have an ATSC tuner in them, making them capable, in theory, of receiving High Definition broadcasts, as of March 2006; and sure, by sometime in 2009 all television stations will be broadcasting in High Definition… but in the meantime, there’s lots of television to watch that’s still in analog. Plus, I’ve got other uses for my money this month.

I went to Fry’s, I went to Best Buy, I even went to Fred Meyer’s and Target, but they didn’t have a lot of selections in the SDTV category. Finally I tried Stuff, a local used electronics store, and found a decent Sony Trinitron 27″ tube that looked like it worked OK. $229, which may or may not be a good deal but it was in my price range and it was getting late. The sales girl, a cute redhead, helped me load it into my FlexCar, in spite of her fighting off the effects of a flu shot, and I headed home.

I tried enlisting my youngest nephew to help me carry it into my apartment, but I couldn’t reach his parents to confirm that it’d be OK for him to help out (there’s been some miscommunication in that area lately so it’s better to be clear). I was able, though, to carry the thing in myself, in stages.

And then I sat on the couch for the rest of the night… surfing… TV is so hypnotic.

So this is Christmas

The last time I was in New York City, which was in early 2000, I was walking around one evening with my friend, who was showing me around. My friend, David, was big on the “non-touristy” stuff, the stuff that only someone who lives in New York would like to see, and he showed me some places I won’t soon forget. But one moment stands out in my memory.

We were walking through Central Park, on the Upper West side. My friend had us cut through, and cross the street that bordered the Park. He was going somewhere deliberately but I had no idea where. I forget the conversation, but I was rambling on about something. Suddenly David stopped me, just as we were going to cross the street.

“Do you know where you are?”

“Um… Central Park? Manhattan?”

In a low voice, he said, “You’re standing on the spot where John Lennon was murdered.”

“Ohmighod.” I spun around and looked at the building behind me. “The Dakota?” Sure enough, there it was. I made us circle back to see the entrance. It is a striking building on its own merits. But a place now haunted by a tragedy.

I was saving this one for next week, but was reminded that today is the 26th anniversary of John Lennon’s murder.

Remember – war is over. If you want it.

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A pause for explanation

I would like to offer a very public apology to my friends, especially Kevin. My questions and challenges are not meant to be personal, and I have not intended to embarrass anyone, least of all my friends. If my responses seemed off-putting or even hostile, I believe that to be a product of the privileged nature of the topic at hand, combined with my forceful way of discussing it.

Tracy’s plea to change the subject, even though I trust her, she’s said she trusts me, and I know her to be quite open to discussion on any other topic, shows how deeply embedded the taboo against challenging religious beliefs can run.

My original question was asked to illustrate a point, a point that Kevin was kind enough to help me elaborate (though not through any pre-arrangement between us, I have to state clearly).

Many people feel that God exists. This feeling is deemed off-limits from challenge or discussion (at least), or even elevated to a status equal to or greater than that of logic, rational thought or empirical evidence. I strongly disagree, and my reasons are many. I hope, with time, to elaborate on them. I intend to do so for as long as I live, and in as many ways and forums that I can reach, because it is a goal larger than myself in which I believe.

But people tend to take their feelings… um… personally, which explains why many find it difficult to accept the tentative and subjective nature of the contents of their head. Understandable, yes. But regrettable, as well.

But feelings, and the senses, can be wrong. Sometimes spectacularly so. If I may direct your attention to the simple observation of the solidity of the ground under your feet, and the equally obvious sight of the sun tracking across the sky, morning to night? And yet, the Earth, in fact, moves, rotating and twisting and flying in circles ’round the Sun. And the Earth’s movements are not a relative matter, but can be demonstrated, and predicted, through tools and ways of thought that are new to us (in geological terms).

Other examples are available in so many formats and places. But most of the time they’re presented as puzzles, mind-teasers, games, or entertainment. I guess people dismiss them as trivia to prevent them from acknowledging what is actually being revealed.

But they’re not just simple tricks.

Because our feelings are so easily fooled, we need ways to measure our intuitions and feelings and see if they produce an accurate model of the world in which we live. Those tools are logic, and rational thought, and the scientific method. Logic can be faulty and lead to false conclusions, true. But far less often than your senses, which are fooled myriad times a day. And logic can be corrected by the other, rational, tools.

Beliefs or “faith”, which has no foundation but itself, are incapable of correcting themselves. Someone with a strong “faith” and a somewhat working brain, can re-interpret any new evidence to support their “faith”. In just the blink of an eye, someone who wants to can see the glass as half-ful, or half-empty, and can cause all sorts of feelings to begin cascading in their brains and bodies, to give a simple example. Neither viewpoint changes the glass and the water, however. Reality is what it is.

Feelings and unfounded beliefs are nice, and all. Enjoy them, if it means savoring a delicious meal, or the warmth of friendship, or the beautiful colors of a sunset.

But don’t pollute those things by seeing things that aren’t there, like some imaginary intelligence that no one can see. And don’t pretend that the things you wish were there justify their own existence.

That’s dishonest.